The numbness felt as if my body was a carcass, empty and decaying. Like there was a tiny center of anguish buried in my heart that vibrated with agony. But as the reverberations of pain pulsate through my body, they were beat to death by the vast emptiness of the rest of me. So the ache was there, my whole body knew it lingered inside creating a living torture, but the rest, the limbs, the stomach, the mind, it was all shut down, dying. This was the numbness, and 

I was living inside of it.